MS Diary | Complications of working for the wheelchair-bound

MS Diary | So much self-care has drawbacks!

MS Diary | Jumpstarting your healing  Today is day 2 of making my mind up to start reinventing myself. I'm gonna jumpstart my healing by acting, talking, texting, blogging, videos, EVERY-THING, like I'm doing better. No more sitting here wishing and hoping that things were different. Time to quit repeating the steps that got me here. I HATE this. I hate it, hate it, hate it. It's crazy that she moved on so quick. I'm using that shock to spark anger. Force myself to accept what's happening and start moving too.  There's a quote: "Fake it till you make it" I'm gonna fake like I'm over it. Fake like I'm happy. Fake like I'm in less pain. Fake everything and shock the world when I use this hurt to finally blow my blog up. I'll write my true feelings, share what's fucked up and why. THIS will  make a blog into a line of income. Then, I'm the one free. Then, I surprise everyone and move to Ecuador.

MS Diary | Falling in love with yourself

What's fucked up is that I overstand why a healthy person would leave a disabled person. I get it, walks, drives, dance, whatever.  Now, I'm forced to decide between staying IN the house so she and the kids can see me & help me OR leave with family that actually WANTS me This is so fucked up. I know staying here is safest decision but it hurts so fucking much to see her living her best life, watching kids grow into mf's that don't need you. Everyone gets to live their best life except me.  So, this will be my greatest challenge for the rest of my life. I gotta prove all this Gratitude, be grateful, love language, manifestations, yoga, meditation, all this mindset OVER bullshit REALLY works.  I know it's not me against the world but Jesus Christ it feels like it is.

What's fucked up is that I overstand why a healthy person would leave a disabled person. I get it, walks, drives, dance, whatever.  Now, I'm forced to decide between staying IN the house so she and the kids can see me & help me OR leave outta state with distant family that actually WANTS me This is so fucked up. I know staying here is safest decision but it hurts so fucking much to see her living her best life, watching kids grow into mf's that don't need you. Everyone gets to live their best life except me. 

MS Diary | How I recovered from anxiety

MS and divorce

National Tattoo Story Day Oooooo! Now, THIS is something to celebrate. Matter fact, let me open a can for THIS day. National Tattoo Story Day #blogger #blogging #blog #life #lifestyle #lifestyleblog #allaboutyou #perspective #beyou #allonyou #bethechange #keepgoing #passion #purpose #mission #message

MS Diary | Friday, the 13th

7th mindset OVER bullshit Roadhouse  When? Friday, 9/13, 6p - 8p CST Where? Private Zoom DM me or m.s.franky Why WE need a mindset OVER bullshit Roadhouse: I'm sick of being left out. I'm sick of hotels with poor accommodations. I'm sick of Airbnb's with ZERO accommodations.

Hot Cross Buns & Gratitude This Gratitude stuffworks! I am on day 1,462 of my Gratitude Challenge and I feel the difference.  When I wake up, within minutes, I’m listing what I’m grateful for. Smiling at the why stories. When I lie down for naps or bedtime, I’m listing what I’m grateful for. Judging which story is worth sharing.  Throughout the day, I’m listing what I’m grateful for and making mental notes for later. It is working.  I believe this focus on Gratitude is manifesting as positive energy. I even like myself with all the freaking disabilities, limitations, legal blindness and shit. Gratitude makes me love and value myself.

MS Diary | What happens when I miss Oxybutynin

MS Diary | Gratitude, Perspective & Divorce

MS Diary | Why I lost motivation

MS Diary | New trick for more showers

MS Diary | Health update after 2x 40hr work weeks

MS Diary | Start your Gratitude Journal!

MS Diary | Medical recliner review Power Lift Recliner Signature Design by Ashley Ballister I scooped a medical recliner with BIIIIIG aspirations for treatment. After a couple days, I'm not impressed. It helps but nowhere near my lofty expectations.  One, I need the leg/foot to raise higher. I have diabetic nerve pain in the feet. It's relieved when feet are higher than waist. Two, the recliner lays flat but it's so skinny, I'm not comfortable.  Three, it offers the ability to help me transfer with a lift. However, it stays at whatever level instead of returning to normal. I really dislike returning to the chair and having to find the right button combo to lower it. Four, speaking of buttons, it's maddening that the buttons have secondary functions that kick in immediately after the initial function. Then, you gotta find the right combo again! *smh*

MS Diary | Find Your Inner Nerd Day